Merry Christmas 2008

a chilly day with more snow than we have seen in years. Reminds me of Christmas's past when the snow seemed to pile up above our heads, but then we were only lil'kids. It is a period of odd and at times conflicting emotions for me. Much of me likes to be alone and introspective at this time - unencumbered by norms and boundaries of social acceptance. I have always felt mostly uncomfortable with crowded and particularly imposed social situations. Spontaneous and impulsive ones? not as much. go figure. But my mental (in)stability continues to confound me. It becomes increasingly apparent as one ages that the aspects of their life they would like to change most, are the ones that get progressively more difficult to change as time goes on. We might spend time to gain a better understanding, or to clearly identify triggers or underlying energy currents, but the reality is, we very much are who we are. The magic is in how we react. Impulsively? that's not really worked very well. Do what is right? oh how wonderfully correct! the fact is this is what allows you to sleep at night and be thankful for your day. and how do you know what is right? Well, a good friend of mine from several years ago asked me a question - what is important - to you? what are your values? what do you value? if your life path, if the decision you make, if the action you take, if the reaction you have - falls in line with what you value, then it is right for you.

May this holiday season be all that it is meant to be for you at this place in this moment. Peace and Warmth at All.